I prayed about it.
I have been on my knees before God, petitioning.
I have shared with Him how I think it could play out to bring Him glory.
I thanked Him in advance for answering my prayer.
His answer is not at all what I expected…or what I would have chosen.
I am crushed because I thought I had figured it out. Figured Him out….
So, I get angry and ask why.
I begin explaining to Him that my way is better and continue with a grown-up fit because my way is not what I’m getting.
But His ways are so much higher than my ways. His thoughts higher than my thoughts.
And I am reminded that oftentimes my dependence is so much more important to Him.
He obviously could have made it play out my way – He’s God.
But in His infinite grace and love, He chose His way instead.
…and tolerated my fit so that He could draw me nearer to Him.